Actor and singer Ayoola Ayolola has recounted how depression led him to attempting suicide.
According to him, he became depressed and contemplated suicide after he was expecting a child he wasn’t ready for.
According to him, he wasn’t prepared to be a father so he decided to end it all.
Speaking in a candid interview with Chude Jideonwo, Ayoola said looking at his son now he regretted his action.
He said: “The time the pregnancy for my son came, I wasn’t prepared to be a father. I got depressed and almost took my life. I deliberately miscalculated while crossing the road so that I would be hit and the car just brushed me.
” I felt to myself, what if I just end it right now? You know, nobody is going to miss me. I was actually in the middle of the road, and when you’re calculating when to cross, I deliberately miscalculated so that I would be hit.
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“Maybe this is a good idea, but then I think the fear of ‘if you do it, you go to hell, is it true?’ I don’t want to go to hell. Maybe it’s a bad idea, and then something happened that maybe picked up the pace or slowed down a little more, and the car just brushed me. I still fell off the road, and some people came to help me up, not knowing I tried to, you know.
” And I think in my case, the resolve to never try it again was the fear of it happening, so after that, my orientation about suicide and depression changed because I used to say, ‘Why would you want to do that? Are you crazy?’ After that time, I started to understand how that thing is more medical and more spiritual than we think. It takes over you, you don’t know. It’s not the decision you’re rightfully making at that time.
“Anyway, all of that happened, and I look back now. I look at the very handsome young man, and I’m like, really? This is what I was about to miss. This is who’s life I was about to destroy by my actions. By the action I was about to take, that I was going to take blindly, this little boy would have been made fatherless”.